very lucky

Tonight I walked around with a friend of mine.

I am happy

that I can say anything and he will not judge me,

that I can feel comfortable telling him things that are bothering me and he will listen, because really all I actually needed was to get these ideas out of my head. Get them out in the open where they cannot hurt me or trap me in overanalyzing.



I am dreading sleep.

My roommate is gone,

and Friday nights I don't share my bed.



I do not like sleeping alone.

I like being alone.
And sometimes sleeping alone.

But,
There's always a but, isn't there?
Not tonight.