A beautiful early morning spent laying in the center of Rosa Parks Circle, seeing the sky.

Johnnys in the basement mixin up the medicine im on the pavement thinkin bout the government lookout kid don’t matter what you did the man in the trenchcoat

Keep a clean nose you don’t need a weatherman to know which way the wind blows
And I just did hear it blow along with click-tapping in the pipes I assume I don’t know I assume

That was a poorly constructed sentence says Charlie, I think, or did I just make that up and if I did then why is his voice repeating that in my mind?

Is a college degree really what I need right now?
Can I go through four more years of systematic brainwashing towards societal assimilation and still turn out ok?
My biggest fear is that in four years I wont want to live my life the way I want to live my life now which is in a sense ok because changing your mind is all a part of growing up but I don’t know if I really want to grow up in that direction and if I don’t grow up in that direction am I still truly grown up? Maybe not by societys standards but isn’t the whole point of this to not end up as a part of society but if im not a part of society can I still be successful. Yes the answer is yes. I can be successful in my own eyes. whats wrong with not growing up anyway? Whats so great about growing up being an adult taking responsibility?
I do want to be educated but there are other options for education than a college degree. Who the fuck decided that a piece of paper and some bullshit background classes make a person intelligent because that person, he, or she, is a half rate asshole. And also wrong. I don’t agree.
But then I go back and ask myself, is this just about me being lazy or is this true thought?
I wouldn’t search for answers to questions like that Jolie says, they’ll just show up he says
Im not searching im just questioning
They will show up, the answers, all in good time but that’s the problem all in good time I don’t have time I do but I feel I don’t I want to know now my mind is not built to wait to be patient to learn slowly I want to know it all, all at once.
Down by the whirpool
Don’t follow leaders watch your pawkin meters

A bitch with legs walks into the bar, and I mean a real bitch, four legs, shaggy fur and all that shenanigans.

Id like to define what truly makes me happy I mean I know some things that make me happy but overall what gives me satisfaction what is my drive ive told people its my interest in learning ive told people its my interest in the world but ive told people a lot of things including I love you and some of them were true and some were only true at the time and some of them were never true but will be in the future and some of them were not true and wont be and I accept that.
Some of the people can be part right all of the time
Part of the people can be all right some of the time
All of the people can be some right part of the time
But all the people cant be all right all of the time
Bob Dylan said that, or something like that, it’s a paraphrase. A personal interpretation.
Ill let you be in my dream if I can be in yours
I said that
Harmonica solo, I want some hot chocolate so im going to leap out of my high bed onto the hard floor to make some because I am cold and in need of some sort of beverage for warmth.
Chewing a cracker too many times to savor the flavor and absorb as many nutrients as possible

Choking on coughing is awful it will not stop however no matter how much I complain or will it to go away it is stronger than me and will overcome. Hopeful that my immune system will gather some more rebel soldiers together and start a movement in my body towards health. I need to start believing in this cause.

I am grateful when I lean off the bed and Conor holds my leg so I don’t fall and hurt myself.